Did I do the right thing?

This is a question I've been asking myself since surgery.  (yes I know it's been that long since I've been here whatever)  I researched and read about the lapband for 2 years before I decided to do it.  Then I found out my insurance "might" pay..... if I wanted to wait 6 months.  Well I didn't.  And luckily I've got a husband that doesn't mind spending money at all.  In fact the more the better :)  It's just usually on his toys lol.

So I decided to selfpay (this you already know if you've been reading my sparse lame posts but according to my kids I repeat myself ALOT, whatever).  But the totally unorganized hospital I had surgery at has submitted everything to my insurance company.  ughhh AFTER I wrote a humongo check to them!!  But..........  insurance has paid some of the claims!!!  woot!  The preop visits and the surgeon bill!  So I go for my first fill on Wednesday and I'm going to take my EOBs and ask for some money back.  I'm taking this as a thump on the head from God that........

YES I DID THE RIGHT THING!

Even tho I'm struggling right now, bandster hell ya know, I am finally convinced that I did the right thing.  :)

So Wednesday............  I get my first fill at 10:15 am.  And I'm scared!  I'm more worried about the fill than I remember being about the surgery!  I know it will all be ok because I've read so many blogs and you all were ok.  Thank goodness I found you guys, otherwise I would be totally freaking myself out.  How do I know this???  Because I.do.it.all.the.time!  ughh  Instead I'm just freaking out somewhat right now lol.

Weight is at 245.2 this morning.  That's up from a low of 242.3 which was the day before I added regular food back.  So I'm happy with a 3 lb gain.  I can't eat quite as much as I could before, but almost.  The thing I'm finding is I've GOT to slow down.  I have lots of trouble with that.  But it is getting better each day. 

Oh and I've learned 2 VERY important things this week....................

Those little powder sugar covered donuts that come in the 6pack you get at the convenience store?  They don't go down worth a shit!  Same with the cinnamon rolls in the can you bake at home.  A little birdie told me this, I didn't try any of it. Nope not me.  No way.  And the birdie told me it hurts BAD.  I didn't PB tho, I mean the BIRDIE didn't PB.  But the band did exactly what I want it to do, get my attention when I try to eat something stupid.  Dumb bird.......

I'm still having trouble with not drinking with my meals.  It's getting better, but still a struggle.  I MISS my ice tea.  I've also got to come up with a way to get more protein in.  I'm not getting nearly enough, partly because I'm not much of a meat eater.  I much prefer cookies and cake.................

Toodles for now, I've got almost 500 posts in my reader to catch up on!

Weight - 245.2
BMI - 40