Seminar....

check!

Insurance - initial forms being submitted today!

So went to the seminar last night. Drove 3 hours for a lame 1 hour slide show and paperwork then 3 hours home. ughhhh

But it's started!! I really feel for most of the people there. All they really did was a slide presentation of stats comparing the lapband and bypass, a few interesting studies on comorbities and a little about where the band goes. Very little info I thought, but maybe that's because I've learned SO much from LBT and you guys. One stat I found interesting was that after 1 year 75% of diabetes lapband patients were off all meds. 80ish% (can't remember) sleep apnea patients were off their CPAPs. These were the 2 that I remember, but they were all pretty impressive.

And this is terrible of me, but man it was damn good to not be the largest person in the room. I would guess half were larger and in much worse physical condition than me. It was sad really. A forboding of things to come if I don't do something......

Bad news is I overhead a couple of ladies talking about how hard my insurance carrier is to work with on this. But by the time I could get thru the crowd (there was prolly 50-60 people there) they were in their cars. I think one of the conditions is that I HAVE to loose 20 pounds first.

But I'm trying to not worry about it just yet. I've got plenty other things to stress over right now! Work is crazy and DH went to Colorado for a 3-4 day job that has turned into a 2 week job. Nice we have the work, but it's got my schedule all messed up lol. Then I keep having blood in my urine and they did a culture Monday that came back clean so now I see a urologist (sp?) on 6/15. I'm trying really really hard not to worry about that but it's not working very well......

So now instead of paperwork, which I'm sick of, I'm going to go catch up on blogs :)

TGIF!

Happy Friday everyone! Man I'm glad it's here, this has been a long week. DH has been out of town so I've had to be at the shop EARLY everyday. I don't like early. Never have most likely never will. Altho I do get alot more done by getting up and started so early (but I'll never admit that!)

Good news..... when I got home there was a voicemail that the bariatric center has scheduled another seminar. ON WEDNESDAY! Yes in 5 days! So I called this morning and changed to this one. So I'll be banded 2 weeks sooner than I previously thought! Still probably looking at 6 months tho...... But at least I'll know it's in the works, this holding pattern is about to drive me insane.

DD was home this past weekend and it was so nice. She lives in Phoenix and is in law school. She just finished her first year and she already speaks a different language when she talks about it all. Way above my head I tell ya.

ok back to work and reading blogs. Hope everyone and a great weekend!

BYOC ~ my first

ok here we go....


1. If you could be a cartoon character – who would you be and why?

the pink Care Bear, I too want to fart gumdrops! Plus they were my daughter's absolute favortie when she was little so they make me smile.


2. Who was your teenage heart throb? (Thanks Fiona for this one)

David Cassidy, showing my age here with the Partridge family! oh and then there was also Little Joe from Bonanza! Can't believe I almost forgot him.

3. Do you believe being overweight is about a mental obstacle or do you believe it’s simply about overeating/food?

Definitely more mental for me. Altho I can't seem to figure out why, I had a good childhood no real trauma like so many have to overcome. Plus I was very thin until I had my first baby, then slightly overweight until after I had my son 5 years later, then all hell broke loose. But I've also gotten into a bad habit of large portions.

4. What’s your all-time favorite song?

hmmm this is a hard one, my music is all over the place and hard to narrow to one. "The Dance" by Garth Brooks, "Amarillo by Morning" by George Strait, "Believe" by Brooks & Dunn, "Wonderful Tonight" by Eric Clapton, "Desperado" by Clint Black. lol how about the top 5? But then that leaves out Cher, Elton, Elvis, Rod Stewart, KISS, Queen.......

5. Whose blog or comment spoke to you/stuck with you this week and why? This is our “you get to be famous for a moment” without having to follow all the rules of an official blog award question.

This is a hard one, I've been trying to read so many lately and several I've read from the beginning that were inspiring. But I'd have to say it's not a blog but a comment on one of my posts from LDswims. She helped me put my freak-out into perspective today.

New seminar date

I'm signed up for June 7. 3 weeks. I wish they would let you just make an appointment and get started because I was all jazzed about it.

Now? not so much.....

I'm in the middle of a massive pity party. The weight I lost while I was sick is now back. And no wonder with the way I eat. Yesterday for instance, greek yogurt when I got to the office. Good and filled me up.

But less than an hour later I was in the shop getting a pack of chocolate donuts. Then for lunch I met my quilty buds for our usual Thursday lunch at a mexican restaurant. Combo burrito green, a big one. But I didn't hog out on chips. Then went to the grocery store and bought NutterButter (not the cookie ones, the ones with pb creme inside) along with my "normal" stuff. Came back to the office for a while and ate THE.ENTIRE.BAG.

WTF???? At least I managed to eat somewhat sensibly for supper.....

I know getting the band won't make me loose weight by itself. I've got to get it together. I thought I was finally getting my head together and so I knew the band was the right thing to do now. But I don't. If I don't get rid of this "poor me" attitude I'll never get healthy.

I wish I could raise my leg up high enough to kick myself in the ass......

I've also come across lots of blogs this week with people having lots of trouble with sliming, PBing and have to do liquids for days and days. This too has me freaking out. I want something to help me with portion control, not have to give up food period. On top of being kinda f'd up in my head, I LIKE to eat. It is the only time DH and I sit down together without being bombarded with work stuff. It's our social life. Everything revolves around eating.....

ughhh how the hell am I ever going to do this?

Sorry to be such a Debbie-Downer today. I'll try to do Draz's BOYC after I get back from the bank and stop whining.....

Bad news and leads to more bad news

I good friend of our's passed away yesterday from cancer and the funeral is Saturday morning. So that means no LB seminar on Saturday. I'm bummed a little I must say but attending the funeral is more important right now. He was only 62 and just way to damn young for this. Please keep his wife and sons in your prayers please.

On a lighter note.... I'll call the doctor's office tomorrow and see if I can go ahead and schedule an appt with them to get paperwork/insurance game started without going to the seminar first. For some reason it's in my head that you "have" to attend the seminar first. So we'll see.

I've also lost another pound. I'm trying really hard to get more protein during the day and pay attention to my calories. NO peanut M&Ms for a week now. NO little chocolate donuts at the office for a week now. I'm also watching tho to make sure I don't go below 40BMI because of the insurance game. Of course that is still 16 pounds away, but ya never know........

Gen ~ Dr. Adam Smith from Ft Worth has just started doing the LB at Lovelace Westside Hosp. He comes in once a month and does LBs, fills, checkups, etc. When I called for the seminar dates they said he was also training someone to do the fills and then I read online somewhere (LBT Maybe?) that he was also training another surgeon to do LBs. I'm surprised as big as Abq is that someone hasn't started doing them before now. I'm just glad he's at a Lovelace hosp and my Lovelace insurance will consider it.

Today: weight: 256.4

Terri